2/18/10

Who are my real friends?
Am I telling too many people too many things?
Yesterday I came to the conclusion that I have become an outgoing person because I am scared that if I dont make friends with people, nobody will go out of their way to make friends with me, and I am lost and not quite sure what to do. does this mean that I shouldn't be proud of my personality, knowing that it is a defense mechanism? And why does this bother me so much at all anyway?

Also, today i officially began my trek to convince my parents to let me go/help me pay for Spain for a whole fall quarter.This is all i could ask for for them. Also I'm thinking of something for lent, but I actually want to DO Lent, not just give something up and torture myself.

And also I am still completely absorbed by the Olympics. The media is doing such a great job of making everyone look like they all get along, I just wonder how much of that is true. HOWEVER, my romantic point of view has decided on the fact that they all love each other and I am in love with the fact that amidst all of the ridiculous government everythings, that we are still able to come together every 2 years and pull something as massive as the OLYMPICS off. It kindof helps to renew my faith in Humanity, much as WOW Team has done with my faith in my own generation.

Lastly, I know there are island people, and non island people. I wonder where the difference is created in life. Who are the puzzle doers and who is plugged in the most. What determines this and when in life does it happen? If it has been decided by 20 years, can it change later in life?

2/16/10 2:23

So i guess this is the first one. I stole this idea from my friend Katie. actually, she's one of my best friends. shes in london at LSE for the year and i have never been so jealous of anybody in my life. I'm doing cool stuff with my life, but she's out experiencing the world. But then, it's Katie, so it's expected.

and here i sit, pretending to experience the world via olympic events, sitting in front of my computer, planning world trips that i have to complete before i graduate from college and have worldly expectations placed on me by society. I'm scared to become a cog in American's culture of recently graduated college students. B.A. get's you nowhere for the win.it is the middle of the night and i've already seen all of these olympic events.

COULDN'T BE GLADDER THAT CHINA WON PAIRS FIGURE SKATING. I WAS HAPPIER THAT THEY WERE ONT HE PODIUM THAN THEY WHERE WHEN THEY WERE UP THERE.